Friday, October 14, 2016

Answering THAT question...

It’s Friday!! Anything nice planned for the weekend?  Mine will hopefully be a gentle one full of family and laughter.  I’m just back from my third outdoor swim with the “Chunky Dunkers” and I’m feeling a bizarre mix of invigoration and fatigue. 

A chunky dunker seen today clinging to hot water bottles
The last two weeks have seen major strides forwards with the addition of Pilates and swimming to my programme towards health and recovery.  With Chronic Fatigue you need to budget how you spend your energy, it’s a massive pain in the bazookas!  I now know that it takes 2 days to recover from an activity.  The question arises well is it worth doing an activity if it takes such an effort and time to recover?  It’s a hard question to answer if I’m honest, however if an answer was demanded I would say yes it is worth it.  The sense of hope these activities bring is priceless and central to recovery. To feel adrenalin, to be pushed physically and to socialise is something that in August I wasn’t sure I could see on the horizon.  At this point depression sailed very close by and I don’t say that lightly!

I have been asked a question frequently over the past two weeks and I have some answers but not enough.  I want to return to work, I miss my young people and congregation and journeying with them.  When I went on sick leave at the start of June it was for what I thought would be a fortnight.  Here we are nearly 4 months later and I’m impatient to get started.  I seen one of our children from church the other day and nearly didn’t recognise them.  4 months has brought a lot of growth and change.

Answering THAT question...
So the question is this… How will I live my life differently to accommodate my illness and to prevent a relapse?  You see most people experience Chronic Fatigue as a medium to long term illness.  Getting back to work will make me tremendously fortunate and very thankful to God for the healing he has so far brought to my body.   However the other day I received a text from a friend sharing that they now have been living with it for 8 years and whilst having returned to work for most of that period it’s something they still have to accommodate.  As November approaches I want more answers…  So this weekend it’s time to think.

Have a great weekend folks, talk soon!

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