Saturday, October 25, 2008

Fear & exercise...

I’m delighted to say that somewhere in the middle of last weekend my pain went and I’ve been feeling normal. I returned to counselling on Monday, went to tech on Tuesday night and hit exercise harder than I have done before within this current campaign. Rightly or wrongly I’ve got nervous of doing weights and so this week I’ve focused on the cardiovascular stuff. In total I’ve had two swims totalling 65 lengths (1 mile), I’ve hit the bike 3 times for a total of 1 hour 20 minutes and I’ve had two walks each for 30 minutes or so.
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I’m mindful of a sense of anger within me towards illness and a fear that it may come back. As a result there is a desperation to lose weight and quickly for fear of what may happen if I don’t. This takes me to a dangerous place of impatience and I really do need to watch that I don’t over do it and sicken myself. I also need to remember that life requires a lot of energy before I add exercise and so I need not exhaust myself or other areas of my life will suffer.

All of that said the positive news is that I’ve enjoyed every minute and I’m keen to continue. I plan to return to cleaning windows this Tuesday and that too will help. I have my eye on my target of being below 20 stone for Christmas and that’s were I’m heading.

1 comment:

Paul Coles said...

your on a good pace pete. Slow and sure kicks the rabbit's but every time, but can be frusterating along the way. keep it up